Three Poems

by Keagan Hawthorne

Benediction for Disaster

 

The Lord of the harvest bless thee

turn the sun to shine upon thee, and keep thee

from too much moisture in the springtime

not enough moisture in the summer

too much moisture in the fall.

From a careless cigarette in the hay barn,

from a rat - for no rat comes alone – in the grain bins.

From clubroot in canola, rust on the wheat,

ergot blackening the rye.

From colic in a baby and bloat in the cows.

From trips and falls and feet that catch in augers,

from hands that catch in belts.

From increasing inputs and decreasing yields,

from the bottom falling out of the market again

or BSE being discovered in the herd.

From tradewars and politicians,

from handsome cowboys at the country dance.

From children who turn and walk away,

bad hootch and worse luck at cards,

the uncle that never paid your father back.

From a heart that breaks as a heart is want to do.

From fear, from fear.

Arrival

 

Early September’s bad weather

in from the mountains.

Rain in the morning, cold breath

of the wind, and just as the wan light fails

in the evening: snow.

Confused robins on the grass,

a marauding bat out dodging the fat flakes.

Cats go slinking into barns, the mice

continue their small assaults on contingency.

 

In town the streets are lit

though everyone has gone inside.

Snow fingers the empty lanes

where streetlamps wear their empty stories

skirted by the silent snow.

 

One hopes that later there will be

a peeling back of clouds,

the moon to turn its cold face

on the world, hardening the shadows

in the graveyard, that grove of graves

wherein the dead are planted

for their final flowering.

The Second Voyage

 

I was already an old king when I set off,

Taking the inland road with a band of men

Who could row against all tides but were unaccustomed

To the tromp. Blisters blossomed on our heels,

The axles of the oxcarts stuck, or broke. The men fought

The beasts and one another, even though the way was broad

And folks were welcoming and kind. I kept a brave face,

Shouldered my oar, certain that my story would precede me.

And for many months it did: in the taverns where we supped

They sang of how I ploughed with prows of many ships

The furrows of the sea, no thought of harvest

Save for the praise of many men.

And how I reaped such bounty.

 

The legend has it wrong: it was not fate that set me on this way

Just some blind old drunk in the corner of a port-side watering hole

In Ismaros or Scheria, I've long forgotten which,

Who raved of a land where men knew nothing of the sea.

We laughed at him, my men and I, who knew everything of the sea -

Mocked the thought of eating meat unsalted, joked

Of oars and winnow fans. And yet.      And yet.

The thought would get to haunting me, years on,

Safely home and hearth-side:

A land where men knew nothing of the sea - a land

Where men knew nothing about me. From atop the cliffs

I watched the sea turn into an ocean of rolling grain;

I could not eat a fish for fear it was some fur-flesh

Dressed up by an awful curse. At night

The sigh of breakers soughed like wind in grass -

And so I left to put these dreams to rest.

 

By the time I crossed the final pass I was alone,

The men all married tavern girls

Or turned back home to Ithaca, and all alone

I took the way descending through a valley

To a plane that opened all the way horizonwards.

With a shock I thought I must have circled home:

An ocean of grass before me, and the waves of it

Broke upon the rocky shore of the road.

 

I came to a crossroads and sat down on a stone,

Sluffed my oar into the ditch. The wood was gone

All paper-grey from too much of sun and not enough of sea,

Too many nights spent propping up the canvas of the tent,

Too many days spent propping up the canvas of a tale.

 

And here I sit, a king much older still.

These days the growth of many summers

Has turned to winter in my beard and I've decided

Just to wait it out - for now I can't quite recall:

Was it sword or sward, swell or swale?

I cannot think just how this story ends:

Was it far or from the sea?